BRIGHTER THAN THE STARS

BRIGHTER THAN THE STARS                     

                                                                                                                     I observed him carefully as he walked to the door. I knew that the time was running out but suppressed the urge to check my watch. I took a deep breath and started  counting in reverse under my breath , “ten, nine  eight seven…..”

The flight would leave in the next 60 minutes. And if he comes up to me now at this point of time I can guarantee that I will definitely miss my 80000 bucks flight to the US….but I couldn’t avoid him as this man was the reason I was flying first class to my dream destination for higher studies.  So now he comes closer to me and I prepare myself for the 61 minute goodbye speech he had been preparing for the last 3 months since he got to know I received a full scholarship to do my masters.

“sweetheart , I hope you know this is really important for me…..dont let the emotional siyapa ruin it in anyway….dont make me weak” I warned him in advance . I literally hated airports and railway station…no matter what they make you cry always….

“ofcourse I know it…..it wont be 61 minutes long …I promise”

Shit! How come did he knew about the 61 minute thing ….was I pursuing my masters in psychology or he?  Nevertheless I accepted the roses he presented to me which obviously wasn’t my thing but he wouldn’t budge from wasting 500 bucks on the fragranced roses and assorted chocolates

“not the chocolates please……you know I am allergic to them” I made a face

“ would you stop acting oh-I-am-so-foreign-stuff ?” he was now getting really impatient. At the bottom of my heart I somewhere knew that I was seriously doing wrong to him after all the pain he had taken for me just to see me smiling through my dreams , but the sneaky practical mind was slapping me hard on making my amygdale numb , the emotions had always destroyed me in the past…I felt as if my heart was full of emptiness..i couldn’t let him use it against me now , when I was just 23 hours away from my dream.

“you are being so selfish” the angel part in me rebuked . my brain and my heart were acting like magnets..i wanted to stay with him, holding his hand, resting my head on his chest but the other part wanted to be strong and had an urge , a desire to have independent experiences

“oh please that’s what she is supposed to do ….so you buzz off” the devil part woke up instantly.

“ohkay fine….you exactly have 10 minutes before my check in ….do it fast” I said

“so now finally you are going ….but always remember to thank god for whatever he gave you…don’t skip your meals …call me everyday and last but not the least keep smiling” he finished

“stop being so sentimental…ill come back during the holidays,love and I guess I can take care of myself..you see I have been taking street smart classes from the femina personality makeovers” I replied haughtily

“so you think you are smart? Lets see….tell me how many Indian rupees are worth 50 dollars?” he smiled wickedly.

BADASS….OKAY FINE I CONFESS I AM NOT “THAT” SMART ….BUT I DO HAVE A CONVERTER APP IN MY CELL  moreover i have learned vedic math too…see I am a super genius until he  comes up with such lame tests

He saw me fidgeting in my phone and gave out a sly laughter. “I guess you should have taken mathematical classes than personality grooming” he teased me

“are you aware that you are getting on my last nerve” I was losing my temper

“ohkay my princess calm down…I was just joking” …and  he signaled me to open the amazingly wrapped gift box

“I don’t wanna spoil the paper…its way too  cute” I gushed

“shut up and open it,love” he ordered

“yeah…..” I reluctantly gave in…..it was always this thing with us. He would say something and I would deny and exactly after 2 seconds he stares staright into my eyes which I must confess really freaks me out sometimes but then I always give in to his requests. I guess it was an unspoken rule between two of us which we both lovingly followed.

So I opened the box….OH MY GOD…..I DON’T BELIEVE THIS….how could he? I mean why did he? I almost was broken….this was not suppose to happen ….but it was happening ….i wanted to run away but my feet were numb…it was an overwhelming surge of emotions  a ring it was a ring….a beautiful star shaped ring whose diamonds sparkled even brighter than the stars. I almost thought it was all a magical dream which would end ….BUT IT DIDN’T

“don’t get me wrong…I know you and feelings are at par enemies from birth ….its just a token of my love to you …so that everyday you wake up in the morning and realize how precious you are to me…I don’t express it to you doesn’t mean I don’t feel it….i do …I really do.

I was dumbstruck.

He looked into my eyes….i didn’t want him to but anyhow he did…and tears rolled down my cheeks.

I could almost feel the pain that I had been trying to hide from everyone since my appointment letter came. Yes I badly wanted to go and pursue my dreams but not at the cost of leaving my loved ones behind. I hated myself for being so damn selfish and self centered when there were people who could die for me. That was the only reason I asked everyone to make their asses stay at home and not to come and see me off as final goodbyes are hardest to bid…

“and most heart warming too….” AGAIN …was he into some telepathy course ….how was he reading my thoughts….it was scaring me now.

“don’t be scared”

“then stop making me feel so” I giggled in between my sobs

“are you now going to wear the ring …it costed me a heck of grands!”

“absolutely ….i am” and I slide the ring into my finger and admire its shine

FLIGHT 590 –USA ….LAST CALL FOR PASSENGERS TO CHECK IN

“so this is it….”

“make the most of it” he smiled and hugged me.

And honestly I never wanted to pull myself back from that soft hug which had always protected me from the tough life….wiped my fears in the dark….it was the most comforting place I was ever in.The  pain had suddenly evaporated..i knew that even if I would return after a decade that place would still be empty just for me

“I love you” he said

“ I love you too, DAD” and I enter the check in the gate

"STOP DREAMING .....HURRY UP ....ITS 6 ...ULL BE Late" i heard d scream....and there ws my dad irritating me and bringing me back to life from a beautiful fairytale sleep

so.....i guess the fairytales are somewhat to look forward to in life...no matter how old u grow

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