Friday, January 22, 2016

VALUE YOURSELF BEFORE THE DOOR GETS BLOCKED

A well known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?"

Hands started going up.

He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this." He proceeded to crumple the dollar bill up.

He then asked, "Who still wants it?"

Still the hands were up in the air.

"Well," he replied, "What if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.

He picked it up, now all crumpled and dirty. "Now who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.

"My friends, you have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20.

Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way.
this was the story my mother recited to me and my sister at bedtime [which was weird coz moms eyes always shut more earlier than mine!]

actually what really happened was one day i asked mom what should i do if a friend of mine completely ignores me for no damn reason?
she initially glared at me and then pepped me to tell her the whole thing

so i began......
a year ago i had made an amazing friend....we used to talk for hours on whatsapp and even on the phone...it was mutually enriching too and we both learned and supported each other through all our ups and downs....atleast i did! it was such a beautiful bond that i never wanted it to go away...
both of us were equally caring and concerned for ones well being but of course never leaving an opportunity to tease each other.....
but recently all of that suddenly stopped.....we all go thru such phases...dont we?
i kept on sending the messages....but the other never bothered to even reply back...gradually not wanting to seem desperate [ we all have that feeling where we feel we are giving more into the friendship than the other ...i had the same] i decided to nt make myself stoop more low and very heavy heartedly called off my communication strings!... and now " the extra busy" person did nt even try once to contact me back ......i tell u ...these expectations hurt the most...[ LESSON OF LIFE....JUST  GIVE AS IF ITS UR LAST DAY...WITHOUT ANY EXPECTATION]
so now.....its like 2 strangers with a cherishable past.....
and mom i feel really sad sometimes....after a busy tiring day when i go to sleep ...i think where did i went wrong?...but then the next morning i begin my day as if nothing happened....and this was a conflicting situation.....which is now driving me mad


"princess.....remind me to tell u a story at bedtime:"
"umm...alright"

and then she told me this story and said " baby, when people unintentionally hurt u and have no plans on coming back....dont stoop low for their time....MAINTAIN UR VALUE AS THAT OF THE DOLLAR NOTE.....always remember....keep ur door open for those who want to leave and those who want to return...but blocking ur door with one person is not right princess..."

" but then u miss the person badly...so badly that u tend to block the door...its easier said than done" i complained

" i understand baby but ITS YOU who needs to put in the effort...be it friending...working  or wanting a desirable object or person ....everything starts with U ....its very hard on ur heart initially but with time the pain fades....DONT FORGET STAY STRONG"

"thanks mom.....really"
" night sweetheart....sleep tight"


HOPE....some of u would have gotten the solution to such problems....get over..move on...life is too short to keep the heart aching!
so KEEP SMILING and
KEEP LOVING UR MOM :) [ ofcourse thats different we argue more......hahahaaa]


Thursday, January 14, 2016

BRIGHTER THAN THE STARS

BRIGHTER THAN THE STARS                     
                                                                                                                     I observed him carefully as he walked to the door. I knew that the time was running out but suppressed the urge to check my watch. I took a deep breath and started  counting in reverse under my breath , “ten, nine  eight seven…..”
The flight would leave in the next 60 minutes. And if he comes up to me now at this point of time I can guarantee that I will definitely miss my 80000 bucks flight to the US….but I couldn’t avoid him as this man was the reason I was flying first class to my dream destination for higher studies.  So now he comes closer to me and I prepare myself for the 61 minute goodbye speech he had been preparing for the last 3 months since he got to know I received a full scholarship to do my masters.
“sweetheart , I hope you know this is really important for me…..dont let the emotional siyapa ruin it in anyway….dont make me weak” I warned him in advance . I literally hated airports and railway station…no matter what they make you cry always….
“ofcourse I know it…..it wont be 61 minutes long …I promise”
Shit! How come did he knew about the 61 minute thing ….was I pursuing my masters in psychology or he?  Nevertheless I accepted the roses he presented to me which obviously wasn’t my thing but he wouldn’t budge from wasting 500 bucks on the fragranced roses and assorted chocolates
“not the chocolates please……you know I am allergic to them” I made a face
“ would you stop acting oh-I-am-so-foreign-stuff ?” he was now getting really impatient. At the bottom of my heart I somewhere knew that I was seriously doing wrong to him after all the pain he had taken for me just to see me smiling through my dreams , but the sneaky practical mind was slapping me hard on making my amygdale numb , the emotions had always destroyed me in the past…I felt as if my heart was full of emptiness..i couldn’t let him use it against me now , when I was just 23 hours away from my dream.
“you are being so selfish” the angel part in me rebuked . my brain and my heart were acting like magnets..i wanted to stay with him, holding his hand, resting my head on his chest but the other part wanted to be strong and had an urge , a desire to have independent experiences
“oh please that’s what she is supposed to do ….so you buzz off” the devil part woke up instantly.
“ohkay fine….you exactly have 10 minutes before my check in ….do it fast” I said
“so now finally you are going ….but always remember to thank god for whatever he gave you…don’t skip your meals …call me everyday and last but not the least keep smiling” he finished
“stop being so sentimental…ill come back during the holidays,love and I guess I can take care of myself..you see I have been taking street smart classes from the femina personality makeovers” I replied haughtily
“so you think you are smart? Lets see….tell me how many Indian rupees are worth 50 dollars?” he smiled wickedly.
BADASS….OKAY FINE I CONFESS I AM NOT “THAT” SMART ….BUT I DO HAVE A CONVERTER APP IN MY CELL  moreover i have learned vedic math too…see I am a super genius until he  comes up with such lame tests
He saw me fidgeting in my phone and gave out a sly laughter. “I guess you should have taken mathematical classes than personality grooming” he teased me
“are you aware that you are getting on my last nerve” I was losing my temper
“ohkay my princess calm down…I was just joking” …and  he signaled me to open the amazingly wrapped gift box
“I don’t wanna spoil the paper…its way too  cute” I gushed
“shut up and open it,love” he ordered
“yeah…..” I reluctantly gave in…..it was always this thing with us. He would say something and I would deny and exactly after 2 seconds he stares staright into my eyes which I must confess really freaks me out sometimes but then I always give in to his requests. I guess it was an unspoken rule between two of us which we both lovingly followed.
So I opened the box….OH MY GOD…..I DON’T BELIEVE THIS….how could he? I mean why did he? I almost was broken….this was not suppose to happen ….but it was happening ….i wanted to run away but my feet were numb…it was an overwhelming surge of emotions  a ring it was a ring….a beautiful star shaped ring whose diamonds sparkled even brighter than the stars. I almost thought it was all a magical dream which would end ….BUT IT DIDN’T
“don’t get me wrong…I know you and feelings are at par enemies from birth ….its just a token of my love to you …so that everyday you wake up in the morning and realize how precious you are to me…I don’t express it to you doesn’t mean I don’t feel it….i do …I really do.
I was dumbstruck.
He looked into my eyes….i didn’t want him to but anyhow he did…and tears rolled down my cheeks.
I could almost feel the pain that I had been trying to hide from everyone since my appointment letter came. Yes I badly wanted to go and pursue my dreams but not at the cost of leaving my loved ones behind. I hated myself for being so damn selfish and self centered when there were people who could die for me. That was the only reason I asked everyone to make their asses stay at home and not to come and see me off as final goodbyes are hardest to bid…
“and most heart warming too….” AGAIN …was he into some telepathy course ….how was he reading my thoughts….it was scaring me now.
“don’t be scared”
“then stop making me feel so” I giggled in between my sobs
“are you now going to wear the ring …it costed me a heck of grands!”
“absolutely ….i am” and I slide the ring into my finger and admire its shine
FLIGHT 590 –USA ….LAST CALL FOR PASSENGERS TO CHECK IN
“so this is it….”
“make the most of it” he smiled and hugged me.
And honestly I never wanted to pull myself back from that soft hug which had always protected me from the tough life….wiped my fears in the dark….it was the most comforting place I was ever in.The  pain had suddenly evaporated..i knew that even if I would return after a decade that place would still be empty just for me
“I love you” he said
“ I love you too, DAD” and I enter the check in the gate


"STOP DREAMING .....HURRY UP ....ITS 6 ...ULL BE Late" i heard d scream....and there ws my dad irritating me and bringing me back to life from a beautiful fairytale sleep

so.....i guess the fairytales are somewhat to look forward to in life...no matter how old u grow

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